yay!!

Benign! No cancer in any of the samples! I'm too elated to be pithy today.

They still recommend I have the mass removed, which I will. I have a meeting with a top breast surgeon in Chicago on Nov. 4. But that seems like popping a zit compared to what I was fearing.

Who knew that you could laugh your way through a biopsy?

My radiologist and the nurses were fun ladies - we actually had a good time laughing about things while she did my biopsy. I didn't feel a thing after the lidocane, am not in any pain now, so overall, not bad!

Now, the radiologist (who is different from the one I saw last week) described my "lesion" as "really weird" with ill defined edges. None of that is terribly positive news. She also said she'd think I'd want this out of me one way or another - its pretty big!

So she will call me with the results, either way, and by this time in 2 days I should know my immediate fate.

The funniest thing was that there was a rep there for vacuum assist needles and he wanted to observe a biopsy. I agreed, and in came this kid - probably recently out of college - who looked uncomfortable enough and then I said "Hi there! I hear you want to see my boobs!" All us girls just LAUGHED and he turned bright red. It was a riot.

A little confession

I don't like pain. Oh sure, I can tell you I've got a great tolerance for it. I've birthed 2 babies, one with no meds, broken many bones, had disk damage in my back.

But I screamed and cried and moaned through all of them.

So I'm a bit concerned with my biopsy tomorrow. I hope they stocked up on Lidocaine, because I don't want them scrimping on me. I originally was just going to go myself (Hubby home babysitting) but I've decided to let my friend come with and drive me in case I'm a big blubbering baby afterward. (Thanks Pam!!)

More news as it happens . . .

Wow, this could be cancer!

Ok, seems like a strange revelation at this point, but it kind of hit me yesterday. I had almost a romanticized version of all this in my head. Basically, I assumed that it would take the exact same course as my Mom's. But it probably wouldn't. She had a mastectomy and the margins were clear, no radiation, no chemo, just Tamoxifin.

But I'm younger, and premenopausal. I have a pretty big mass (4.5cm x 1.5cm). Radiation and/or chemo would likely be in my future.

By this time this week I'll know. I've never wished for fat so much!